Hate Holidays

This is the worst holiday i ever had. I hope something nice will be happening to me soon, if not i shall rest in peace. Reason of death: Lack of space mentally( cos i have lots of 'space' physically), and definitely murdered.

im not sure whether is it me or my family members? Im not sure whether its me who has changed oris it just that now i finally realized what's hiding among them? I dont understand. Im being so left out. Maybe to them, Im just someone they can make use of or maybe just someone who can entertain them?

I dont understand. Im so full of question marks. Whether i do something, i always try to think in their place before doing anything. I care about them first then mine. I dont understand why. Maybe just being stupid bah.. Forget it

I think im all alone now. I only feel that im just an outsider accompanying one of their rooms in the house and also wasting their food.

Im hanging alone now... All alone.