Hate Holidays

This is the worst holiday i ever had. I hope something nice will be happening to me soon, if not i shall rest in peace. Reason of death: Lack of space mentally( cos i have lots of 'space' physically), and definitely murdered.

im not sure whether is it me or my family members? Im not sure whether its me who has changed oris it just that now i finally realized what's hiding among them? I dont understand. Im being so left out. Maybe to them, Im just someone they can make use of or maybe just someone who can entertain them?

I dont understand. Im so full of question marks. Whether i do something, i always try to think in their place before doing anything. I care about them first then mine. I dont understand why. Maybe just being stupid bah.. Forget it

I think im all alone now. I only feel that im just an outsider accompanying one of their rooms in the house and also wasting their food.

Im hanging alone now... All alone.

friday night

im just back from a small evening shopping trip and I didnt buy anything!!!!! SO SAD.

hey, i finally signed up for the singnet broadband1500. hehehe my usual connection was only 512kpbs and now i pay the same price for a better connection ahahha. and i got to choose 2 handphones for the offer. Both 3G phones. One is a Motorola one and one is the Nokia 6680( usual price 900++) which i need to topup 338 bucks for it. Of course i will get the Nokia one. Im now Nokia loyalty list( if there is one) okie!! ahahha.
Now i get a Ethernet modem free, and i wont have to worry about getting disconnected always due to the unstability of my laptop.
hehehe...

okie lazy lazy bones.... night night

on Holidays.

As you all can feel from my blog, Im on HOLIDAY finally. After 4 months of school, im finally having my end of yr term break. It is 3 months long... Starting school on the 1st of August, and again, i need to consider what modules to take for next semester and i will be graduating in another year's time. Damn fast i should say.

What had i been doing for the near 2 weeks holidays so far?? I visited the library, borrowed books on html, which i need to know for next semester work. Gonna head back to library for more books. I finished reading the thin book Tuesdays with Morrie. I baked cookies for my nieces. I taught them Maths, Chinese and English. Part time Nanny!!!! Went shopping alone for 2 days, burned a hole on my pocket again. Everyday sleep at 2am and wake up at 12 noon. Went out with friends.......
Hahaha in short, i just wasted 2 weeks of holidays and i still have 10 more weeks to waste.
Come to think about i just wasted 2 weeks holidays in a blink of an eye, i think i can just waste the other 10 weeks easily hehehe.. =P

Tuesday( yesterday), I met up with my secondary classmates, and we watched House of Wax. Actually i know the story already because vincent told me and it's damn gory. No other comments, I just think the way the people got killed was damn damn damn gruesome.
Chatted quite a lot with them. As both Doreen and huifen are poly graduates, and they are still looking for jobs and going for interviews, we went to sign up the job agency to look for jobs. I need a temp job to keep me occupied and i need the money. I cannot imagine myself after graduating, looking for jobs. I seemed like there are thousand of people looking for jobs everytime a batch of students graduated. *sigh*

Finally bought an eye serum for dark rings!! Damn ex, but i think its okie, I cant stand them anym0oore!!!!!

Went out to celebrate Selene's birthday. This girl has just reached the 21 mark. hahaha. and i will too in another 4 months i think? hehehee Went for dinner, still the usual crap. I always feel comfortable with this whole batch of friends. Overall, Nice friends, nice dinner. I just wonder 10 years down the road, will we still be able to meet up like this?

- Sindy told me she might want to come back to sg for holidays this july?!!! *excited oh*
- Someone just offered me a temp job to be a surveyor in N U S / N T U? I dont think i will be taking up that job !
- Happy Birthday Selene!!!!=)
- Did i say i got a new mp3 player??
- oh and did i say i might get a new phone? * im not only broke now, Im broken*

Its killing me

I just changed 2 layouts for my blog today. It's killing me. If u have noticed, the right column is empty. Ask me Why??? I DONT KNOW. Damn fed up with it. For the 1st layout i try just now, totally no words appear although when u are in the preview mode everything was alright. And dont know what is the problem with it!!!!!!!!!

Hate you!!!!!!!