Will u still love me

Listening to Chicago's Will you still love me. This is the particular song that will really touched me.If someone will to sing this song to me, i think i will marry him hahahaa. *foolish*

For the past weekends, was kept busy by the show, and i didnt even know for what.
But overall, it's still okie.

Chatted with him on Saturday. I cried. Not because he said something that hurts me, just couldnt control my feelings when i talk about how i feel the things are going. Not my relationship with him, just something else; Work. Sometimes things people do, really hurts me alot when i see them doing it. When i want to help, and i got rejected, i felt even worst. I'm so useless, such a simple task i cant even help. Although i dont enjoy doing it, i think i still have to do it, so that someone wont have to suffer from it. It's okie for me to suffer but i just dont like it. Maybe i will change my opinion when i grow older.

He told me he thinks he still hasnt given me enough of love and care. Wow. And he promise me he wont disappoint me. So nice.....
I told him how much i dont like his attitude, and i think i really hurt him by saying that, but he's willing to take my advice. He wants me to give him time. Okie I will.

something about you

It's the end of week 3 finally!!! i'm so happy! Week 3 had been a rather long week for me. Now it's finally over!!!

Monday is the longest day i ever had in school. 8am to 6pm. It's killing me. Pity that min has to bear with it every monday alone now my appeal for a later lesson has approved. I'm already going crazy at my last lecture; Maths lecture. I seems to have a lot of comments on our maths lecture, the way he looks, the way he walks and the way he dresses. hehehe. I'm so sorry for min and selene cos they have to bear with all my lame comments and dumb-huihui's jokes.

Tuesday , a short school day for me. Only 2 hours lecture. And guess what, we(me, min, selene) skipped the lessons after attending the 1st half of lecture. hahaha. stupid right. Shouldnt have come to school. hehehe. I desperately need to get bras. Most of them got out of shape cause my ex-maid used to wash my wired bra in the washing machine. Now i'm only left with out-of-shape bras. Got to do some shopping for bra in the evening, but couldnt find any. " So nic, U promise to BE my SUPPORT ah.!!!!!!! " Oh, managed to buy the Zara shirt i was aiming for quite some time. It's a similar top that jw had it. ahahahah

Wednesday, got to Orchard early and vin wasnt there yet. Went to shop for clothes hahaha. and i bought a purple sleeveless top( which i would only wear with a cargdin over it), a shirt and a 3/4 pants from Mango. Yeah!.
Met selene in cityhall cos i promised to accompany her to get her brown belt for her judo. Walked around in Marina Square and guess what. It's like a dead shopping center. Nothing much over there.
Walked to esplanade. I cannot recall how many times have i been to esplanade with him. Umpteen times. Went to library@esplanade. They actually have 2 screening rooms available for booking for you to watch videos in it. i actually booked the smaller room but the sound system wasnt working so the lady transferred us to the other bigger room(it's even bigger than my room lo.) for us at the price of the smaller room. Watched Finding Nemo. ahahhaha very out-dated right! But i havent watched that movie yet. hehehe. Nemo's so cute! He with his lucky fin. hehehehe
Took a walk from esplanade to fullerton then to raffles place then to lau pa sat. Every time when i'm with him, we are always walking and i really dont know where to bring him. .. I'm a very very lousy local.

Thursday, another long day.

Friday, another long day.

Saturday, went to help my sis out in the Comex show. Got to meet Jw for dinner at Kenny Rogers. hahaha. This girl wants to see her bf lah, so she happened to be so nice to meet me there in the show. hahhahaa.

My Sunday, gonna help sis out in the Comex Show again.

That's me and him. Very ugly photo right?? hahahaaha taken with a camera phone.
hahahhahaah my face looks so distorted and his face looks damn long!!!and funny!!! Arghh.
ugly photo... Gonna remove this photo a few days later i think. so Ugly!

hahahhaa. That's the picture of him,trying to look coool while i was taking his picture.
But he looks funny in photo. hahaha =)
Using a camera phone so the picture is a bit the small ah
I promise to post photos of him. so now that u all see him already...
any comments???! =)

Oh good news!!!! My appeal's approved! and my mon tutorial is pushed to 11-12 rather than the usual 8-9. Yeah! I get to wake up late now!! and no more 5 hours break! Now's only 2 hours!! hahahahahaahaha. =)



Timetable for Year 2 Semester 1....

Although it's a 4 days week. but i got 3days which are very XIONG. Ah.. Hope my appeal for monday gets approved then i can go to school later and have lesser hours of break!

nothing much again

Oh, i got a new layout, new template, new design! hehehehe. Very girly right?!! Actually i had quite a lot to blog about for the past few days, but i was tooooo lazy to type it out, now that I'm free, i couldnt remember what to write. hehehehe

It's already week 3 of school and tutorials have started.
I'm starting to get tired of school! =(
I want to go shopping later!!!!
Spend money!!!!!

Oh, i lost my student concession card, there goes my 52 bucks worth of unlimited bus ride ticket!
Readings and Tutorials are piling up!

Oh, i got a new mobile phone and a new mobile no.
Those who dont have my new number, ask me for my new number okie?
Oh, it's a Nokia 7610.
I'm loving it!!!!! Vin also using the same phone hahahaha =P

Wendy's so lucky! She just changed her job on 10 August and she already got to travel to Myanmar for business trip a week later. And soon she will be going Thailand i think then in September to Japan! *Envy* Hope she's having fun in her new job. =)

School life.

One week had passed. And here i am still alive. Had an enjoyable week maybe because i'm finally out of work and back to school. School life is alright because tutorials hadnt started but soon work will be piling up on my table again. Tutorials to finish, projects meeting dateline, blah blah blah.. It's nice to be back to school and meeting school mates on the way. Got to see my dear Yimin. hahaha this gal is wearing pink which used to be her hated colour. Dont know what have made her change her mind. =) and of course with that cute hairstyle, which made me cant stop myself from calling her china doll..

Lectures are as usual Boring. Lecturers have weird sense of humor. Lecture theatrettes are freaking cold but lecture companion are always wonderful person to be with; someone who can stand all your complaining about the lecture , someone who shares same views about the lecturers, someone who helps you check out guys and someone who sleeps with you in lecture ahahhahaa. =)

My timetable's still not finalised yet because the tutorial slots are not confirmed yet, will post my timetable up soon to show you guys. I have a 4 -day week, with wednesday. And mostly my wednesday will be spent with him. Looking forward to this day everyday. =)

Wednesday 11th August 2004

Accompanied him for a haircut and we had Famous Katong Laksa for lunch.
Took him to Ikea because he will be moving out soon and he might need to get something for his new place. Although he didnt need to get a sofa, we went around placing our butt on every set of furniture. See that's how boring we were. haahhahaa.
Caught the movie The Notebook at Plaza Singapura. I still think Cineleisure has the best seats ever. GV plaza's seats are so straight and uncomfortable and you dont get to choose where you sit in the theatre . That's BAd!!!!! The movie was sweet and touching and draggy. It's quite touching but due to the draggy-ness of the movie, i somehow dont get touched in the end. ahhaha. Just another love story with a couple of sex scene. Oh, you know what , when we were buying tickets for the movie,

guy at the counter : So did you 2 bring your IC along?
me : Huh?
guy at counter : the guy will check your IC later when you enter the cinema ya!

hahahhaha. Man! do we look like we are under 16? That show is a NC-16 show. Not a RA show ah.. hahahaha. Man, we do look young hahaha =) That's a compliment hahahha

Had dinner at ps food court. The Grilled chicken drumstick is damn damn damn delicious ah..... =) *drooling whenever i think of it*

Went to esplanade for a walk. And indeed, Esplanade at night is a place for dating. Cos u get to see couples sitting around, chatting and chatting. When you are in your first few months of the relationship, both of you seems to have lots of things to chat about and never get tired over it. =P

Thursday 12th August 2004

back to school again..

Friday 13th August 2004

back to school again.... and i have 4 hours of break in between lessons. 4 hours!!!!
Decided to check out the newly opened Genki Sushi in YIH in NUS. 20% discount to celebrate its opening ceremony. hehehehhe. Food in Genki Sushi is much much much much more cheaper than in Sakae Sushi ahhahaa.. and with the 20% on top of it, it's worth the money hehehee. =)_
And the master chef in genki is so remarkable. " HAO-Chi Hao-chi a............" hahahhaa =) Min and selene will know what i'm saying hahahaa.

Selene came over to my place for the night. Yeah! So nice. Although someone will be occupying half of my bed, i'm more than willing to give it up for a great company. Someone to chat with you till 5 am in the morning and sharing jokes and gossips hehehehe. =) Someone to make u either laugh till your tummy couldnt take it or feel like crying. Hadnt have such a long chat with her before, or do we ever had such a long one. It's great to open our hearts and chat about things that happened and things we want to share with each other. I'm a not-bad listener but i tend to miss out on some parts due to the sleeply-ness. hehehe. Pardon me for that okie?

Saturday 14th August 2004

Met Jiawoei for a while for some shopping. Didnt manage to get anything, only some thread for sewing. ehehehe.
I gave him a key chain which i got from the school bazzar. I thought it was unique and nice and he doesnt have a proper key chain so just got it for him. And it seems like he really like it. Hahaaha, when someone likes the present you got for him, you just feel like throwing him with gifts hahaha :)


Sunday 15th August 2004

Got to laze at home the whole afternoon, reading my P.S. I Love You storybook and i'm only half done with it. heheheehe and my mummy spent her whole afternoon karoking with Aunty Lena, as long as they enjoyed it, i wont find the noise disturbing. Mummy's so nice to let me go out for fireworks later and leaving her with her friends for some bowling seesion which she intended to drag me with them. Luckily i got my evening planned.

Met jw and sam at 6pm. Went for lunch with the couple and with sam's 2 elder brothers. The whole dinner wasnt weird just that there is more lightbulbs. ehehhe =)

The fireworks are awesome(did i use the right adjective?) and magnificant. hehehe. This is the first fireworks i ever watched this year. I miss those before, sad to say.

Met vin after work and he ran to look for me in cityhall. He said he didnt want to miss a minute with me. wow. That's the sweetest thing i ever heard. ahahhaha =P The fireworks are long over by the time we met. Although he didnt accompany me during the fireworks display, i wasnt bothered by that. =) He sent me back at 2350, and surprisingly mummy didnt nag at me hahaha. Yeah Yeah! hahahhaa... =)

Joy to the world!!!!!!!!!!

Serious thinking.

Now it's already 3.38am and i still dont feel sleepy at all. If he's to know that i'm still not sleeping yet, he's gonna get angry with me, but who cares. =p Had a few things in mind, decided to blog about it when it still fresh in my mind.

Have a short chat with my eldest sis when she drove me home the other day, when i tell her how much i want to go back to school, cause the long holidays are driving me mad. She was glad to hear that and it just slipped off her mouth. She actually took my chinese characters for some fortune-telling and she told me that among the 3 daughters. I'm the only one who is mend for studies, and he recommend me to study as much as i can. I was laughing when i heard that.. ME?? ME?? ahhaha the greatest joke i ever heard. When i heard that, i started to think about my future. What should i do after university, after getting my degree in Computing. What should i do? Should i continue with my Masters? or should i study Business Admin( actually that was what i wanted to study)?? Or should i just get a job and be satisifed with it Or worked for my parents? I have totally no idea 'bout it. I'm those kind of person who do last minute thinking and always have that dont-care attitude. 2 more years, i will have finished my studies and i think i really need to find my path.. I really need to know what i should do if not i bet my mummy will decide for me. I wrote this blog to remind myself time and time again that i need to decide and face the truth.

Suddenly i feel like getting away from here. I want to study abroad. I want to be independent! Of course i know actions are bigger than words but i really dread thinking about it.
Asked my sis so what if i further study , what can i do after that. "After that you will know what you want " I hope so.

Then she continued telling what that fortune-teller told her about the other family members. Knowing that my both nieces will be doing well, i'm glad to hear that. But when i hear about what might happen to the other member, i ............. . Didnt know how to express that feeling, i just have to take note about it. And i already start to feel it. It's only a matter of time, the thing will just burst out unknowingly, and that's it. I will just have to be extra careful with it.

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The other day, i was chatting with my elder sis. hahahaha had been chatting with my sisters ah, ahhaha, it's nice to be their listening ear. Just when she was telling how she wished she had another baby, she broke out a news to me. And i was so damn shocked by that news. She had been keeping it to herself for more than 2 years and now that i'm the only one who knows it. And i am not supposed to leak that out. That was the last thing i could ever think of. Now i understand why my sis behave like this and why she had changed through out these years. Even my eldest sister noticed this change but she doesnt know why. I'm not sure whether is this right ? I didnt know how to comfort her when we were chatting over msn. I couldnt see her, i dont know how she feels, i dont know what to do. I only know i have to keep it to myself and I hope by doing this, i am sharing the burden with her, i hope she can get over it and hope everything will be fine.

When i heard about it, im just shocked but i dont feel anything. It was just a great blow and and dont know how to react to it. Now while i'm typing this, i can feel it. So terrible. I cannot imagine. If i'm in her shoes, i wont know what to do. Ah.... Shit!. Damn shitty. If this ever happened to me, i think i would have done what she had done too.. Shit.

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Everyone have their own problems. Problems which they cant solve . Problems which they cant share, even if they can be shared, they had to be shared with right person. It doesnt mean that once you shared them, u will get the solution to it. It might just bring more problems.
It's never-ending.

I cried over this problem twice. I dont know whether the tears are real. Or i cried for the sake of it, or i cried cos i'm supposed to cry. I dont know. I dont know. I really dont know.
How to be true to my feelings? I dont know!!

Life is like a heap of Shit! Fuck

Happy Birthday Singapore.

Happy 39th Birthday Singapore. It's National Day! The day we celebrate Our nation's Birthday. ehehehee.. Still Remembered we used to hang our flag outside our apartments but it seems like we hardly hang it anymore. And i still remembered once in secondary school, we even went around HDB flats to sell the residents Our Singapore Flag. Although it was kind of tiring and you get chased around my irritating topless uncles, it still quite enjoyable at the end of the day hehehhee, at least we did something for my country hehehhee.. =)

Still remembered we used to sing those patriotic songs during schooling days. "One pple One nation One Singapore...", " Stand Up for Singapore , do the best we can, reach out for another hand....", "Count on me Singapore..." and " This is home, truly....." It's so nice to hear these songs again.. =)

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Promised my sis to be there at her place to help her pack her wardrobe. hehehhee i was the one who requested for that because her clothes had been taking up lots of space in my wardrobe ahahhaa..... =p Spent the whole afternoon helping her pack, got rid of a lot of old clothes hehee and also found quite a few of my MIA clothes hahahhaa. Yeah! After seeing how small her wardrobe is and how many tonnes of her daughter's unwanted clothes, toys in her wardrobe, i decided not to ask her to bring her clothes back, let her have my share of mine. ahhahaa.. =p
Sometimes i dont know why, i just pitied my sis, she should have married at such a young age. She's only 24 when she got married and i thought that was too young. I totally cannot imagine those who got married at 18 and gave birth at that age. It means you are struck there forever, you would have to play your role as a wife and a mother at such a young age when you are not a girl and not yet a woman....

After a day's hard work( hahaha not really, at least i enjoyed it), when shopping to pamper myself. Kinokuniya's having a storewide 20% off again and i just bought a book from there not long ago..ah.... and it's always a must to buy book during the offer, therefore i bought Cecelia Ahern's PS, I Love You , (the book that Nicole has been wanting to get it) hehehhehe. =) I had been getting book when i still havent read the others i just bought and those that i had read only halfway through hahaha. =)
Finally bought the pair of sandles from Charles and Keith. Had been eyeing it for some time but it just didnt have my size in stock the last few times. And now i finally got it but a size bigger. ehhehe but it looks okie, a bit loose.
Bought a real short white shorts cum skirt from OP. hehehhee gonna wear it tomorrow! hehehee=) not only that, i bought a blue Converse shoe too. hehehhee.. Dont know why i have this sudden change in opinion about Converse. I used to dislike Converse, but yet i'm buying it now. hehehhee I didn like the star they had on their shoes, so i bought one without the idiotic star hehehe. =)

Burnt a hole in my pocket AGAIN!
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My nokia hp just failed me.. Now i'm using my daddy's SamSung hp.. ah.... there goes my messages from him and mms from him too... =( Dont know whether can it be repaired or not.. And He got a new phone! That particular phone that i had been dying for. Nokia 7610.. ARghhhh...... So nice! At least now he's using this phone, i can at least have my hands on it.. =) And i made him a hp pouch hahaha.. Using my mummy's antique sewing machine. and i did a great job ehhehe. at least i think the handmade hp pouch looks like one that's off the shelf. hehehhe =) one that is selling for $6.90 hhehehhehee.. i think i just found a side-line. =P

More free time to spare

Without having to work on weekdays for this week, gives me more time to do my things.. At least i tidied half of my room... Gonna tidy my wardrobe soon... =)

Wednesday 4th August 2004
Went out with jiawoei for the whole day. Finally did some shopping.. Got myself a Esprit bag and belt, a Zara top and a Mambo shorts... And i ate my fave Crayfish Pasta at the taka foodcourt. Finally get to enjoy my day before my school starts. =)
I gain weight again. and it seems like i'm getting fatter and my arms are even more flabby! OH My God! Time to wake up! Time to get down with some exercise...

Thursday 5th August 2004
Officially One month!! I'm with him for a month already! And time really passed damn fast. Cannot imagine that it's already a month already! And so happened that he changed his off day to thursday. And we managed to get together on this day. I dont think we would be like celebrating every 5th of each month. And there's nothing to be celebrating about actually. I'm just grateful that he remembered this day. ehehehe... Actually he's quite a sensitive person. =)

Met him somewhere near his place for lunch before we head for Orchard for movie. It's really true that when you are with the person you like, the food tastes better hahahha. I'm so silly to think this way ahahhhaa =)
Bought tickets for The Village . Managed to get the couples' seat and the whole theatre was quite empty. Watched the first 30 mins of the movie, but somehow it doesnt interest me. The story was so-so and i wasnt paying any attention to it anymore. ehehhee.... Just want to enjoy his company..
The movie ended and for the 1st time i walked out of the theatre without any idea what the show was about and what was the ending. I'm so lousy hehehe. =) i just wasted my $7.50 like this.
Loiter around Paragon, window-shopping around before we settled down at Coffee Club Express in Wisma. Just have to say that the New York CheeseCake in CCE is still the best i have tried as compared to Starbucks. =)
Actually whenever i go out with him, i have totally no idea what we should do. I dont know where to bring him and he dont know where to bring me too. So can anyone suggest to me where can we go.. ahahhahhaa *pai seh ah, really no idea where to go cos normally when i go out, i only go shopping hehehe*
Showed him my last year's neoprints. He mentioned that i changed quite a lot in appearance, i have more flesh on my cheeks in other words i became more chubby. OH mY God, the last thing i ever want is being more chubby . More Chubby == FAT. but he said i look better now and i think it's my hairstyle that caused this change in me. hahahahhaa... Blame it on my hairstyle! btw, Come to think about it, i hadnt taken any neoprints since last july hahaha. =)

I took a cab home and this blurr blurr taxi-driver started asking me questions like.

Taxi : " Wow, u live at tanjong rhu ah, then very inconvienent for you right . You shared a flat with your friends ah? how many of u ah?? "
Me:"huh?? I'm a Singaporean hahahaa".
hehhehehe He mistook me as a Malaysian hahahhaa.. My god! Still remember few years back there was once another taxi-driver mistook me as a Chinese(PRC) cause he said i spoke fluent mandarin.hahhaa. My foot hehehe. hahahhahaha.
Back to the former taxi-driver,
Taxi: "U sound like Malaysian, You got a lot of Malaysian colleagues, is it?"
Me: " huh.. no.. but my bf is Malaysian" ( *ps: i think some of you guys didnt know my bf is Malaysian hahahhaa, it's a secret okie?*) hehehhee.
Taxi: "No wonder you sound like one. Sometimes it's not purposely but u just caught his accent." ( no no no........)

The taxi driver was so engrossed in chatting with me that he missed my place hahhaa... hahahhaa funny guy who keep telling me the same thing vincent tells me hahahha. Just wonder whether did he sent the taxi-driver to tell me this. So coincidence right. .....

Havent seen my handphone bills for this Month July. Then i went online to check. This Month handphone bill cost $108, hahaha compared to vincent's $300 . It's nothing.. hehehe Then what's sooooo nice! My daddy paid the bill for me!!! ehhehehehhe ahahhaha.. Yeh! Hooray to daddy! If u have favour from your daddy, always works when daughter sai(1)-nai(1) to her daddy. Yeah!!! hehehheheeeeee

My First Month

I'm with him for one month already! Will be going out later with him! It's really fast right! One month already! =)